Life’s been a great teacher, it so often gives us the most important lessons that we could ever ask for. And like most students, we will never learn before we had actually been punished. And that punishment, be it physical or mental, will make us remember our lessons for the rest of our lives.

As I’ve walked pass a quarter of my lifetime, I find that the most difficult punishment to bare, are not of those inflicted by sticks and stones, but are the regrets of the pass that haunts us in every breath we take thereafter. They are the most cruel punishment that anybody can receive.

As so, I swore to myself long ago, not to put myself in that situation under any circumstances. And that if I know and believed that what I’m do is right, I would stand by my decisions no matter how hard it would be.

Do not take me as a child who knows no consequences, as I know well that the worse consequence are the things you would never get a second chance. And no amount of money and wealth can make up for it.

I make my own path. Even though its tough, but it is my path, and I’m going to take it. What would the world be today, if everyone just follow what existing path available to them?

A safe, certain, secure, easy path is irrelevant, if the destination is not of your own choice. And at the end of the day, all you do is ending up at the wrong place, looking back at the crossroad that passed by that day, along with those people who jump on the bandwagon. And regret why you do not have the courage to make your own path on that faithful moment?

So, believe me when I say, don’t be so quick to think that you’re smart to have arrived somewhere so fast and easy, it might just not be the place you want to be in the first place.

That said, as I am taking a long hard look through the path that I’m walking through now, and saw my destination. I said to myself, “Thank you Lord for being with me up till now. I’m glad to be here, and I wouldn’t have had it any other way.”

“I can do everything through Him who gives me strength.” – Phi 4:13

Something happen to my car … too tired and indifferent now to talk about it … pictures coming soon …

I am blessed with a plentiful life. Maybe not with all the riches of the world, but definately with the abundance of friends that I hold dear to my heart. Praise God.

Yet like a big baby, I demand more and more of what was given to me by grace. Asking for things which I do not deserve. Like a baby, who drop the icecream in his hands trying to grab the toy in front of him. Shamelessly.

Broken promisses. Shamelessly.

God if it is Your will, please take away those things that I do not deserve, and I will obey without a single word of complain. For I can no longer bare the pain of knowing what I did, and the guilt and shame of hurting those who I hold dear to my heart.

The world is full of big babies like me. And I am forever a baby before the Lord, as He hold my hand and walked me towards Him.