I am blessed with a plentiful life. Maybe not with all the riches of the world, but definately with the abundance of friends that I hold dear to my heart. Praise God.

Yet like a big baby, I demand more and more of what was given to me by grace. Asking for things which I do not deserve. Like a baby, who drop the icecream in his hands trying to grab the toy in front of him. Shamelessly.

Broken promisses. Shamelessly.

God if it is Your will, please take away those things that I do not deserve, and I will obey without a single word of complain. For I can no longer bare the pain of knowing what I did, and the guilt and shame of hurting those who I hold dear to my heart.

The world is full of big babies like me. And I am forever a baby before the Lord, as He hold my hand and walked me towards Him.

I’ve heard this phrase before, and I’ve heard it again today. Which makes me wonder where does it come from, and what does it mean.

HotForWords JimmyNgu.com decides to investigate.

The phrase Carpe Diem, as most of us might know it, means “seize the day”. It is taken from a Latin poem by Quintus Horatius Flaccus (Horace – as widely known to the English-speaking world).

It basically tells you not to wait to do the things you want to do, and also don’t waste time because time flies and there’s no going back.

According to WikiPedia, the original poem was like this in Latin :-

Tu ne quaesieris, scire nefas, quem mihi, quem tibi
finem di dederint, Leuconoe, nec Babylonios
temptaris numeros. ut melius, quidquid erit, pati.
seu pluris hiemes seu tribuit Iuppiter ultimam,
quae nunc oppositis debilitat pumicibus mare
Tyrrhenum: sapias, vina liques et spatio brevi
spem longam reseces. dum loquimur, fugerit invida
aetas: carpe diem quam minimum credula postero.

- Odes 1.11 -

Which translate into :-

Leuconoe, don’t ask — it’s dangerous to know —
what end the gods will give me or you.
Don’t play with Babylonian fortune-telling either.
Better just deal with whatever comes your way.
Whether you’ll see several more winters or whether the last one
Jupiter gives you is the one even now pelting the rocks on the shore with the waves
of the Tyrrhenian sea — be smart, drink your wine.
Scale back your long hopes
to a short period. While we speak, time is envious and
is running away from us. Seize the day, trusting little in the future.

- Odes 1.11 -

The name Leuconoe in the poem refers to a female companion that Horace was giving his advice to.

However, some believed that Leuconoe was not the real name of the lady that Horace was talking to, as this Greek name pretty much translates to “empty head”. [source]

So Horace was actually talking to all the “empty heads” out there, about this very very very important message.

As I am too lazy to find out what Babylonian fortune-telling is all about, and I don’t give a shit what does Jupiter had to do with winters and the Tyrrhenian sea.

Lets just skip to the last part.

Now, if you take it literally what Horace said in the last few paragraphs. Horace actually told Leuconoe to drink wine and forget about the future, as time is flying and we should seize the day.

That’s like something you would’ve heard when a bunch of uncles drinking together.

“COooomee !!! YAM SENG !!! Forget about tomorrow, it’s too far away !!! We’re getting old oredi and dun have much time to enjoy !!! SEIZE THE DAY !!! Tonight no-drunk-no-go-home !!! YAM AHHhh ….”

So, my point of this whole post being, that we SHOULD ALL FOLLOW WHAT HORACE TOLD US TO DO.

We should not worry about work tomorrow, because there will always be work tomorrow.

We should not worry about money, because some people lose everything in a blink of an eye.

We should not worry about time, because time flies no matter what we do.

The only thing we SHOULD worry about, and that’s the ONLY thing to worry about.

Is this …

… whether we have enough booze to drink or not at the end of the day.

Because if we don’t drink, we cannot seize the day. No Carpe diem.

Because Horace said so … I rest my case …

me? Or is everyone around me falling sick?

I woke up today and I felt like my nose had been chop-sticked ….

Ah … it’s that time of the year again … Haze season …

What a nostalgic feeling that is, I seem to have felt almost the same last time it came – from my sinus cavity all the way down to my lungs.

And guess what? This time our beloved Selangor State Exco Elizabeth Wong “found out” that 200 illegal immigrants are responsible for it !!!

Mr Kaput believes otherwise though :p

My first post in 2 months ….. !!!!

And … that sums up what I wanted to say during those 2 months …
which sucksssssssss …

Nope, nothing more to say besides that.

Oh … I got my own domain now … which doesn’t make me feel any different than before I got it …

which again sucksssssss …  wtf …

No blogging for me for a while … I’m afraid my negativity will spread through the blogosphere (not that everyone reads my blog anyway) …

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This entry is being deleted because it represents one of the darker chapters of my life. And while it represents only my own personnal opinions and emotional outbursts in cyberspace, the devastation had proven to be as real as it can get.

I hereby sincerely apologize for all that I’ve said and done. Knowing full well that what I did can never be undone, one day I will come before God and all I can say is that I was a immature, selfish and self-centered bastard.

Dear Lord I come before you as a sinner, who is not worthy of all your blessings. I ask for Your forgiveness when I cast aside the wonderful blessings that You’ve given me as if it was dirt. I ask for Your grace as I repent and confess to You that I had indeed taken for granted all the blessings that You’ve given me. And I pray that Lord, You will teach me and mold me, like a father teaching his son, as I submit myself to You and Your will. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.