The last thing she said to me was “I’m sure you’re not the guy for my future … I want to move on with my life without you …”

Life’s been a great teacher, it so often gives us the most important lessons that we could ever ask for. And like most students, we will never learn before we had actually been punished. And that punishment, be it physical or mental, will make us remember our lessons for the rest of our lives.

As I’ve walked pass a quarter of my lifetime, I find that the most difficult punishment to bare, are not of those inflicted by sticks and stones, but are the regrets of the pass that haunts us in every breath we take thereafter. They are the most cruel punishment that anybody can receive.

As so, I swore to myself long ago, not to put myself in that situation under any circumstances. And that if I know and believed that what I’m do is right, I would stand by my decisions no matter how hard it would be.

Do not take me as a child who knows no consequences, as I know well that the worse consequence are the things you would never get a second chance. And no amount of money and wealth can make up for it.

I make my own path. Even though its tough, but it is my path, and I’m going to take it. What would the world be today, if everyone just follow what existing path available to them?

A safe, certain, secure, easy path is irrelevant, if the destination is not of your own choice. And at the end of the day, all you do is ending up at the wrong place, looking back at the crossroad that passed by that day, along with those people who jump on the bandwagon. And regret why you do not have the courage to make your own path on that faithful moment?

So, believe me when I say, don’t be so quick to think that you’re smart to have arrived somewhere so fast and easy, it might just not be the place you want to be in the first place.

That said, as I am taking a long hard look through the path that I’m walking through now, and saw my destination. I said to myself, “Thank you Lord for being with me up till now. I’m glad to be here, and I wouldn’t have had it any other way.”

“I can do everything through Him who gives me strength.” – Phi 4:13

Something happen to my car … too tired and indifferent now to talk about it … pictures coming soon …

I am blessed with a plentiful life. Maybe not with all the riches of the world, but definately with the abundance of friends that I hold dear to my heart. Praise God.

Yet like a big baby, I demand more and more of what was given to me by grace. Asking for things which I do not deserve. Like a baby, who drop the icecream in his hands trying to grab the toy in front of him. Shamelessly.

Broken promisses. Shamelessly.

God if it is Your will, please take away those things that I do not deserve, and I will obey without a single word of complain. For I can no longer bare the pain of knowing what I did, and the guilt and shame of hurting those who I hold dear to my heart.

The world is full of big babies like me. And I am forever a baby before the Lord, as He hold my hand and walked me towards Him.

I always thought sound waves looked like this …

I’ve heard this phrase before, and I’ve heard it again today. Which makes me wonder where does it come from, and what does it mean.

HotForWords JimmyNgu.com decides to investigate.

The phrase Carpe Diem, as most of us might know it, means “seize the day”. It is taken from a Latin poem by Quintus Horatius Flaccus (Horace – as widely known to the English-speaking world).

It basically tells you not to wait to do the things you want to do, and also don’t waste time because time flies and there’s no going back.

According to WikiPedia, the original poem was like this in Latin :-

Tu ne quaesieris, scire nefas, quem mihi, quem tibi
finem di dederint, Leuconoe, nec Babylonios
temptaris numeros. ut melius, quidquid erit, pati.
seu pluris hiemes seu tribuit Iuppiter ultimam,
quae nunc oppositis debilitat pumicibus mare
Tyrrhenum: sapias, vina liques et spatio brevi
spem longam reseces. dum loquimur, fugerit invida
aetas: carpe diem quam minimum credula postero.

- Odes 1.11 -

Which translate into :-

Leuconoe, don’t ask — it’s dangerous to know —
what end the gods will give me or you.
Don’t play with Babylonian fortune-telling either.
Better just deal with whatever comes your way.
Whether you’ll see several more winters or whether the last one
Jupiter gives you is the one even now pelting the rocks on the shore with the waves
of the Tyrrhenian sea — be smart, drink your wine.
Scale back your long hopes
to a short period. While we speak, time is envious and
is running away from us. Seize the day, trusting little in the future.

- Odes 1.11 -

The name Leuconoe in the poem refers to a female companion that Horace was giving his advice to.

However, some believed that Leuconoe was not the real name of the lady that Horace was talking to, as this Greek name pretty much translates to “empty head”. [source]

So Horace was actually talking to all the “empty heads” out there, about this very very very important message.

As I am too lazy to find out what Babylonian fortune-telling is all about, and I don’t give a shit what does Jupiter had to do with winters and the Tyrrhenian sea.

Lets just skip to the last part.

Now, if you take it literally what Horace said in the last few paragraphs. Horace actually told Leuconoe to drink wine and forget about the future, as time is flying and we should seize the day.

That’s like something you would’ve heard when a bunch of uncles drinking together.

“COooomee !!! YAM SENG !!! Forget about tomorrow, it’s too far away !!! We’re getting old oredi and dun have much time to enjoy !!! SEIZE THE DAY !!! Tonight no-drunk-no-go-home !!! YAM AHHhh ….”

So, my point of this whole post being, that we SHOULD ALL FOLLOW WHAT HORACE TOLD US TO DO.

We should not worry about work tomorrow, because there will always be work tomorrow.

We should not worry about money, because some people lose everything in a blink of an eye.

We should not worry about time, because time flies no matter what we do.

The only thing we SHOULD worry about, and that’s the ONLY thing to worry about.

Is this …

… whether we have enough booze to drink or not at the end of the day.

Because if we don’t drink, we cannot seize the day. No Carpe diem.

Because Horace said so … I rest my case …